How does one explain feelings. With big long words that describe what specific meanings of the words of emotions are? In the end it’s still just words. I wish she could be there. Inside of my head. Every time I see her or talk to her or am thinking about her I wish she was right there in my head. Because that’s the only way that she would ever understand how I feel about her. How happy she makes me. How grateful I am to have her specifically in my life. Its hard to show something like that. You can say all of the “I love you” in the world and it still wouldn’t show them how you feel. It only reassures them. She is so good to me. She cares about me as a person. She wants me to do good. She doesn’t give up on me. She is there in my time of need probabilities than I am there for hers. Even in my worst months of hardship with struggling with my jobs and barely making rent and not being able to afford to give her the things she wants or take her to the places she wants. I feel so useless and low at times. Where in the past I was always the one who would take them out on the dates buy them gifts and be that person and.pay for it all. And here I am now at the point of my life where that is the toughest thing to do. Things always get better. And I just can not wait until the day I am stable. Stable enough to be the man. Stable enough to support my woman. Not the other way around. And that day will come soon I know it. They were with me when I was at my best, when I was sable and then they left. But not you. Your with me at the worst unstable part of my life I’ve ever had and your staying. That shows me that you actually care. That you actually love me. And know that I actually love you. So much. Here’s to the rest of our lives.